that's what friends are for

Hello everyone!
I'm back to post!

Thanks to all who had asked me to get well soon. (:
I'm trying my best!

It's already term TWO.
Though it's only the start of JC, life has kind of been hectic for me.
And many things happened over these few weeks.
Most of them, i need to make a decision and have to accept the consequences of the choice.

So recently, my temper hadn't been that good.
I'm sorry to my family, whom i screamed at due to trivial things.
I'm sorry that i didn't know how to take good care of myself, and always let them worry.
I'm sorry that i had changed so much, that made them so disappointed in me.

Perhaps it is because i'm still too immature to handle certain things.
I can't cope with it. It really stressed me out.
I didn't know how to sleep with a pillow wet with tears..
How do you sleep with constant sobbings..

I'm really confused and worried.
What does it mean?
I may have let you down, disappoint you over and over again, but i've really tried my best.
And i believe you wouldn't be able to change yourself for me( if you were me).

Who can tell me.
What should i do and am i really wrong...

{ 11:29 AM }

I am finally back from camp!!
Prep West Zone Line Camp and actualy West Zone Line Camp 2009!

My job as an I/C is finally over.
The feeling is relieved.
Shall not post about the camps.
There's too much too much to mention.

But in all, i've really enjoyed it. (:

I'm always falling sick after camp.
I've got a real bad sore throat since yesterday.
Even when swallowing the saliva hurts.
Went to see the doctor today and i'm again exempted from PE and vigorous activities for a week.
My throat tonsils are badly inflammed.
Pus is growing on the tonsils.
It just looks like my tonsils are having huge ulcers...
And i need to choose between injection and medication or try out medication first.
Antibiotics, fever pills, throat pills costs $89 today.
And so, i got scolded...
For wasting money after every camp cause i don't know how to take care of myself.

All i'm hoping for now is quick recovery.
I will feel bad if i'm going to miss the PC outing this saturday again.
But if i can't go. I'm really sorry.

{ 4:51 PM }

Preparation for West Zone LINE camp.
My I/Cs are BLUR-headed guys.
He says: You don't trust me? Accidents do not happen twice okay...

Gonna have meeting tomorrow and on saturday.
I know i've got to learn things fast.
If not i'll have to face the consequences.
Tough eh? hahaha.

Okay. There's changes already.
I'm adapting to the school cause i have more friends now.
Hahahaha.

You just made my day! (:

{ 6:49 PM }